I come from heartbreak and misery
The shit that really gets to me
I may have a dark history
And it really kills me mentally
Cause I sit back and write this shit
But only some care a little bit
So I sit back and take a hit
And fall back in an empty pit
It's dark inside
There's nowhere to hide
Exit my mind
Where there's only hell I find
But I'm not scared
Because I never cared
I could only hope to be spared
I can only blame myself for my position
But I started a mission
I'm making it out with my own damn permission
I don't understand my actions
I ain't had no practice
Nobody to guide I'm alone feeling static
Got no place to go but I'm doing fine on my own
No emotion shown as I walk down this empty road
With a coffin that is my home
And a gun right to my dome
Caught in the fucking zone
I don't care to lose a hoe
Too much shit gets me mad
Like the things I've never had
This shit makes me sad
To look at what made me happy
So upset I can't even fucking stand
I'm haunted by my past
Where I would spend every moment like my last
When there was one thing i was never asked
I wish someone asked if I was okay
I would think about it night and day
Nobody cared so why should I stay
There's no worse form of betray
Then to have to feel like nobody gives a damn
To stand up tall and be a man
Write lyrics so people can understand
Why I am the way I am
I'm in a maze
Still not fazed
But one simple gaze
Put me in the grave
I never knew my voice was heard
When I learned it was absurd
Cause I was just the little nerd
Who sat in class hurt from words
Nobody matters they're all imaginary
Nothing's happy and nothing is scary
Nothing out there that could possibly hear me
My minds a fucking mess
All the built up stress
Screams in my head louder then fucking jets
It's like ik living in hell
I'll kill myself oh well
Or maybe I'll rot in a cell
Like my uncle who's life fell
From all the damn drugs he would sell
I give up on being who I am
When nobody gives a damn