[Verse 1 Jordy]

I'm starting to question my motives as to why I'm doing this
Is it to make money and to make a breakthrough with this
Or do I really wanna spread God's love and truth with this
Because more times than not, I just wanna be a fool with this
And spit all these lyrics that are super, hot fire
I wanna spit my bars until the day I retire
Want them to be a hit and never expire
If I said I didn't feel this way, I would be a liar
Started out rapping just to have a little fun
Telling everyone that my focus on the Son
But now when I write I talk about Him none
Wondering if I'm gonna hear him say well done
Trying to be like Peter, end up being more like Judas
Preaching positivity I could've been Buddhist
Not throwing shade I just know what the truth is
Are you seeing why I'm contemplating why I do this?

[Chorus]

I'm going crazy trying to figure out my motives
Heading full speed down a track toward a fork locomotive
My motives been divided and I can't find the quotient
Getting lost in my thoughts like in the middle of the ocean
I be trying to hop sin, but I got an ill mind
I need Michael Oher I'm getting hit from the blind side
I be like a NASCAR driver turning left instead of right
But like Harry Styles, I need one direction in my life

[Verse 2 Jordy]

Started out saying I was gonna live unashamed
But now every verse I write I try to leave out His name
His message is subliminal in my lines but it ain't the same
Got me more obsessed with chasing money and the fame
Looking at it now no wonder God hasn't used me
For a while this was getting kinda confusing
How come I spent so much time and money on this music?
I said I did it for the Lord and He still hasn't used it
Started "carefully" choosing the songs I do in shows
In case you didn't see I put carefully in quotes
Like these say "God" to much so I can't use those
And this ones just right it'll please the church folks
That's probably why I'm not selling any albums either
Is music something I want or do I really need her
Is it for the Lord or does my ego need a feeder
Father, is it too late me for to say I'm sorry, Justin Bieber

[Chorus]

I'm going crazy trying to figure out my motives
Heading full speed down a track toward a fork locomotive
My motives been divided and I can't find the quotient
Getting lost in my thoughts like in the middle of the ocean
I be trying to hop sin, but I got an ill mind
I need Michael Oher I'm getting hit from the blind side
I be like a NASCAR driver turning left instead of right
But like Harry Styles, I need one direction in my life

[Verse 3 Jordy]

So in conclusion, this gift I'm using and spewing
My heart inside of this music rebooted suited to do your work
Motives review them and if they're wicked renew them
Yeshuah conform them to Him and His will so I can keep Him first
I stand idle, if this idol takes the title of most important and vital in my life over the One who sent me
Open my Bible, and keep the scope on my rifle on daily being the bride who is worthy for Him to come and get me
Continue with giving my cardiovascular examinations
Present all my lamentations to the lamb who saves men
Hop in the both and spit the truth because I be amped to praise Him
Until the day I see His face and embrace Him
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