This the life that I got used to
Planting seeds is fruitful
I just watch the sunset
Oh this shit look beautiful
Got lost in a daydream
I had to retrace my steps to find the same things
I had to keep taking breaths to stop from sinking
I had to live with these regrets and not look back from all this fucking overthinking
Yeah I been maxed out for a while now
I'm on E, I'm 'bout to come down
How longs the high last
Smoke and watch the time pass
I'm staring through an hourglass
Took a gram off the stash
Right before my life flash
The phone full of missed texts
Nah I don't wanna write back
A room full of fake friends
Nah I don't really like that
I rarely feel love but when I do I run from it
Self-sabotage, internal monologue
The sound is never cuttin' off
I promise you I'm good
I never gave a fuck at all
Your line's busy every time I call
I lose it all just to get it back and lose it all again
I lose it all just to get it back and lose it all again
I just wanna win, to find the means to end
I'm crashing at the finish line before this race begins
I'm struggling to see the signs, my light is getting dimmed
I finally had to realize it all lies within
The view of freefalling feels free as fuck
I guess that anything is better than just giving up
Looking at the ceiling in a dark room
All because you never had the heart to follow through
Then follow intuition as it follows you
You listen to your weaker self
Asking him if he can help
Ain't nobody 'bout to save you, you gon' have to save yourself
So don't drown in the shallow end
Just try to tread the water