DEAR GOD,

It took him the whole spring, from March to June, to make up his mind to take me. All I thought about was Nettie. How
she could come to me if I marry him and he be so love struck with her I could figure out a way for us to run away. Us both
be hitting Nettie’s schoolbooks pretty hard, cause us know we got to be smart to git away. I know I’m not as pretty or as
smart as Nettie, but she say I ain’t dumb.
The way you know who discover America, Nettie say, is think bout cucumbers. That what Columbus sound like. I learned
all about Columbus in first grade, but look like he the first thing I forgot. She say Columbus come here in boats call the
Neater, the Peter, and the Santomareater. Indians so nice to him he force a bunch of ’em back home with him to wait on
the queen.
But it hard to think with gitting married to Mr. _____ hanging over my head.
The first time I got big Pa took me out of school. He never care that I love it. Nettie stood there at the gate holding tight to
my hand. I was all dress for first day. You too dumb to keep going to school, Pa say. Nettie the clever one in this bunch.
But Pa, Nettie say, crying, Celie smart too. Even Miss Beasley say so. Nettie dote on Miss Beasley. Think nobody like her in
the world.
Pa say, Whoever listen to anything Addie Beasley have to say. She run off at the mouth so much no man would have her.
That how come she have to teach school. He never look up from cleaning his gun. Pretty soon a bunch of white mens
come walking cross the yard. They have guns too.
Pa git up and follow ’em. The rest of the week I vomit and dress wild game.
But Nettie never give up. Next thing I know Miss Beasley at our house trying to talk to Pa. She say long as she been a
teacher she never know nobody want to learn bad as Nettie and me. But when Pa call me out and she see how tight my
dress is, she stop talking and go.
Nettie still don’t understand. I don’t neither. All us notice is I’m all the time sick and fat.
I feel bad sometime Nettie done pass me in learnin. But look like nothing she say can git in my brain and stay. She try to
tell me something bout the ground not being flat. I just say, Yeah, like I know it. I never tell her how flat it look to me.
Mr.come finally one day looking all drug out.
The woman he had helping him done quit. His mammy done said No More.
He say, Let me see her again.
Pa call me. Celie, he say. Like it wasn’t nothing. Mr. _____ want another look at you.
I go stand in the door. The sun shine in my eyes. He’s still up on his horse. He look me up and down.
Pa rattle his newspaper. Move up, he won’t bite, he say.
I go closer to the steps, but not too close cause I’m a little scared of his horse.
Turn round, Pa say.
I turn round. One of my little brothers come up. I think it was Lucious. He fat and playful, all the time munching on
something.
He say, What you doing that for?
Pa say, Your sister thinking bout marriage.
Didn’t mean nothing to him. He pull my dresstail and ast can he have some blackberry jam out the safe.
I say, Yeah.
She good with children, Pa say, rattling his paper open more. Never heard her say a hard word to nary one of them. Just
give ’em everything they ast for, is the only problem.
Mr. _____ say, That cow still coming?
He say, Her cow.