[Intro]
Seems I've been saying
Bring me closer to god, or
Closer to Mars, I don’t care
Who's testing me in this fire?
I've got to get outta here

[Verse 1]
Day 22, being on the train alone
Can’t remember which way's home
No conductor on this ride, baby, no access to a phone
I go wherever the track goes

[Verse 2]
The wind picked up, it got cold
Peeking out from the window, it's misty, it's official
I'm starting to doubt my heavy lack of a goal
Scared that the weather might want to swallow me whole

[Verse 3]
My thoughts are a mess, I've gotta clean up the floor
And maybe I love her, but then maybe I don't
I lose all of my senses when she gets me alone
But then I feel cruel soon as I walk out the door

[Verse 4]
And this isn't healthy I keep telling her, oh
But she’s stubborn as hell and she won’t leave it alone
What I gotta do to get you to let me go?
I don't deserve this kind of love anymore
[Bridge]
Projecting
Everything that I am
A bad girl, sad girl
Hiding in the open world
Roads don’t care
If I'm bare
And I think I messed up

[Interlude]
Love's lost, gone, and you were my heaven
I just run, but you are my heaven

[Bridge]
She's a dream, she’s a saint, she's a lover, she's a caregiver too
How can I measure up to her when I'm out here like a mule?
Oh, I'm so ashamed
I'm to blame for anything she goes through
Every burden that she carries alone
Please stop the train
I'm to blame for anyone that's laughed at her
Easy trust in me keeps backfiring
Oh, I'm so afraid
That the day will end and I won't see you
Then my story ends abruptly alone
[Interlude]
Love's lost, gone, and you were my heaven
I just run, but you are my heaven

[Outro]
I quit visiting your place
I would stand out there for days
I have grown into disgrace
Maybe I'll be back someday
Once I'm strong enough to stay