The Second Quarter
The letter Toby had received from Alderman Cute, was addressed to a great man in the great district of the town. The greatest district of the town. It must have been the greatest district of the town, because it was commonly called âthe worldâ by its inhabitants. The letter positively seemed heavier in Tobyâs hand, than another letter. Not because the Alderman had sealed it with a very large coat of arms and no end of wax, but because of the weighty name on the superscription, and the ponderous amount of gold and silver with which it was associated.
âHow different from us!â thought Toby, in all simplicity and earnestness, as he looked at the direction. âDivide the lively turtles in the bills of mortality, by the number of gentlefolks able to buy âem; and whose share does he take but his own! As to snatching tripe from anybodyâs mouthâheâd scorn it!â
With the involuntary homage due to such an exalted character, Toby interposed a corner of his apron between the letter and his fingers.
âHis children,â said Trotty, and a mist rose before his eyes; âhis daughtersâGentlemen may win their hearts and marry them; they may be happy wives and mothers; they may be handsome like my darling M-e-â.
He couldnât finish the name. The final letter swelled in his throat, to the size of the whole alphabet.
âNever mind,â thought Trotty. âI know what I mean. Thatâs more than enough for me.â And with this consolatory rumination, trotted on.
It was a hard frost, that day. The air was bracing, crisp, and clear. The wintry sun, though powerless for warmth, looked brightly down upon the ice it was too weak to melt, and set a radiant glory there. At other times, Trotty might have learned a poor manâs lesson from the wintry sun; but, he was past that, now.
The Year was Old, that day. The patient Year had lived through the reproaches and misuses of its slanderers, and faithfully performed its work. Spring, summer, autumn, winter. It had laboured through the destined round, and now laid down its weary head to die. Shut out from hope, high impulse, active happiness, itself, but active messenger of many joys to others, it made appeal in its decline to have its toiling days and patient hours remembered, and to die in peace. Trotty might have read a poor manâs allegory in the fading year; but he was past that, now.
And only he? Or has the like appeal been ever made, by seventy years at once upon an English labourerâs head, and made in vain!
The streets were full of motion, and the shops were decked out gaily. The New Year, like an Infant Heir to the whole world, was waited for, with welcomes, presents, and rejoicings. There were books and toys for the New Year, glittering trinkets for the New Year, dresses for the New Year, schemes of fortune for the New Year; new inventions to beguile it. Its life was parcelled out in almanacks and pocket-books; the coming of its moons, and stars, and tides, was known beforehand to the moment; all the workings of its seasons in their days and nights, were calculated with as much precision as Mr. Filer could work sums in men and women.
The New Year, the New Year. Everywhere the New Year! The Old Year was already looked upon as dead; and its effects were selling cheap, like some drowned marinerâs aboardship. Its patterns were Last Yearâs, and going at a sacrifice, before its breath was gone. Its treasures were mere dirt, beside the riches of its unborn successor!
Trotty had no portion, to his thinking, in the New Year or the Old.
âPut âem down, Put âem down! Facts and Figures, Facts and Figures! Good old Times, Good old Times! Put âem down, Put âem down!ââhis trot went to that measure, and would fit itself to nothing else.
But, even that one, melancholy as it was, brought him, in due time, to the end of his journey. To the mansion of Sir Joseph Bowley, Member of Parliament.
The door was opened by a Porter. Such a Porter! Not of Tobyâs order. Quite another thing. His place was the ticket though; not Tobyâs.
This Porter underwent some hard panting before he could speak; having breathed himself by coming incautiously out of his chair, without first taking time to think about it and compose his mind. When he had found his voiceâwhich it took him a long time to do, for it was a long way off, and hidden under a load of meatâhe said in a fat whisper,
âWhoâs it from?â
Toby told him.
âYouâre to take it in, yourself,â said the Porter, pointing to a room at the end of a long passage, opening from the hall. âEverything goes straight in, on this day of the year. Youâre not a bit too soon; for the carriage is at the door now, and they have only come to town for a couple of hours, aâ purpose.â
Toby wiped his feet (which were quite dry already) with great care, and took the way pointed out to him; observing as he went that it was an awfully grand house, but hushed and covered up, as if the family were in the country. Knocking at the room-door, he was told to enter from within; and doing so found himself in a spacious library, where, at a table strewn with files and papers, were a stately lady in a bonnet; and a not very stately gentleman in black who wrote from her dictation; while another, and an older, and a much statelier gentleman, whose hat and cane were on the table, walked up and down, with one hand in his breast, and looked complacently from time to time at his own pictureâa full length; a very full lengthâhanging over the fireplace.
âWhat is this?â said the last-named gentleman. âMr. Fish, will you have the goodness to attend?â
Mr. Fish begged pardon, and taking the letter from Toby, handed it, with great respect.
âFrom Alderman Cute, Sir Joseph.â
âIs this all? Have you nothing else, Porter?â inquired Sir Joseph.
Toby replied in the negative.
âYou have no bill or demand upon meâmy name is Bowley, Sir Joseph Bowleyâof any kind from anybody, have you?â said Sir Joseph. âIf you have, present it. There is a cheque-book by the side of Mr. Fish. I allow nothing to be carried into the New Year. Every description of account is settled in this house at the close of the old one. So that if death was toâtoââ
âTo cut,â suggested Mr. Fish.
âTo sever, sir,â returned Sir Joseph, with great asperity, âthe cord of existenceâmy affairs would be found, I hope, in a state of preparation.â
âMy dear Sir Joseph!â said the lady, who was greatly younger than the gentleman. âHow shocking!â
âMy lady Bowley,â returned Sir Joseph, floundering now and then, as in the great depth of his observations, âat this season of the year we should think ofâofâourselves. We should look into ourâour accounts. We should feel that every return of so eventful a period in human transactions, involves a matter of deep moment between a man and hisâand his banker.â
Sir Joseph delivered these words as if he felt the full morality of what he was saying; and desired that even Trotty should have an opportunity of being improved by such discourse. Possibly he had this end before him in still forbearing to break the seal of the letter, and in telling Trotty to wait where he was, a minute.
âYou were desiring Mr. Fish to say, my ladyââ observed Sir Joseph.
âMr. Fish has said that, I believe,â returned his lady, glancing at the letter. âBut, upon my word, Sir Joseph, I donât think I can let it go after all. It is so very dear.â
âWhat is dear?â inquired Sir Joseph.
âThat Charity, my love. They only allow two votes for a subscription of five pounds. Really monstrous!â
âMy lady Bowley,â returned Sir Joseph, âyou surprise me. Is the luxury of feeling in proportion to the number of votes; or is it, to a rightly constituted mind, in proportion to the number of applicants, and the wholesome state of mind to which their canvassing reduces them? Is there no excitement of the purest kind in having two votes to dispose of among fifty people?â
âNot to me, I acknowledge,â replied the lady. âIt bores one. Besides, one canât oblige oneâs acquaintance. But you are the Poor Manâs Friend, you know, Sir Joseph. You think otherwise.â
âI am the Poor Manâs Friend,â observed Sir Joseph, glancing at the poor man present. âAs such I may be taunted. As such I have been taunted. But I ask no other title.â
âBless him for a noble gentleman!â thought Trotty.
âI donât agree with Cute here, for instance,â said Sir Joseph, holding out the letter. âI donât agree with the Filer party. I donât agree with any party. My friend the Poor Man, has no business with anything of that sort, and nothing of that sort has any business with him. My friend the Poor Man, in my district, is my business. No man or body of men has any right to interfere between my friend and me. That is the ground I take. I assume aâa paternal character towards my friend. I say, âMy good fellow, I will treat you paternally.ââ
Toby listened with great gravity, and began to feel more comfortable.
âYour only business, my good fellow,â pursued Sir Joseph, looking abstractedly at Toby; âyour only business in life is with me. You neednât trouble yourself to think about anything. I will think for you; I know what is good for you; I am your perpetual parent. Such is the dispensation of an all-wise Providence! Now, the design of your creation isânot that you should swill, and guzzle, and associate your enjoyments, brutally, with food; Toby thought remorsefully of the tripe; âbut that you should feel the Dignity of Labour. Go forth erect into the cheerful morning air, andâand stop there. Live hard and temperately, be respectful, exercise your self-denial, bring up your family on next to nothing, pay your rent as regularly as the clock strikes, be punctual in your dealings (I set you a good example; you will find Mr. Fish, my confidential secretary, with a cash-box before him at all times); and you may trust to me to be your Friend and Father.â
âNice children, indeed, Sir Joseph!â said the lady, with a shudder. âRheumatisms, and fevers, and crooked legs, and asthmas, and all kinds of horrors!â
âMy lady,â returned Sir Joseph, with solemnity, ânot the less am I the Poor Manâs Friend and Father. Not the less shall he receive encouragement at my hands. Every quarter-day he will be put in communication with Mr. Fish. Every New Yearâs Day, myself and friends will drink his health. Once every year, myself and friends will address him with the deepest feeling. Once in his life, he may even perhaps receive; in public, in the presence of the gentry; a Trifle from a Friend. And when, upheld no more by these stimulants, and the Dignity of Labour, he sinks into his comfortable grave, then, my ladyââhere Sir Joseph blew his noseââI will be a Friend and a Fatherâon the same termsâto his children.â
Toby was greatly moved.
âO! You have a thankful family, Sir Joseph!â cried his wife.
âMy lady,â said Sir Joseph, quite majestically, âIngratitude is known to be the sin of that class. I expect no other return.â
âAh! Born bad!â thought Toby. âNothing melts us.â
âWhat man can do, I do,â pursued Sir Joseph. âI do my duty as the Poor Manâs Friend and Father; and I endeavour to educate his mind, by inculcating on all occasions the one great moral lesson which that class requires. That is, entire Dependence on myself. They have no business whatever withâwith themselves. If wicked and designing persons tell them otherwise, and they become impatient and discontented, and are guilty of insubordinate conduct and black-hearted ingratitude; which is undoubtedly the case; I am their Friend and Father still. It is so Ordained. It is in the nature of things.â
With that great sentiment, he opened the Aldermanâs letter; and read it.
âVery polite and attentive, I am sure!â exclaimed Sir Joseph. âMy lady, the Alderman is so obliging as to remind me that he has had âthe distinguished honourââhe is very goodâof meeting me at the house of our mutual friend Deedles, the banker; and he does me the favour to inquire whether it will be agreeable to me to have Will Fern put down.â
âMost agreeable!â replied my Lady Bowley. âThe worst man among them! He has been committing a robbery, I hope?â
âWhy no,â said Sir Josephâ, referring to the letter. âNot quite. Very near. Not quite. He came up to London, it seems, to look for employment (trying to better himselfâthatâs his story), and being found at night asleep in a shed, was taken into custody, and carried next morning before the Alderman. The Alderman observes (very properly) that he is determined to put this sort of thing down; and that if it will be agreeable to me to have Will Fern put down, he will be happy to begin with him.â
âLet him be made an example of, by all means,â returned the lady. âLast winter, when I introduced pinking and eyelet-holing among the men and boys in the village, as a nice evening employment, and had the lines,
O let us love our occupations,
Bless the squire and his relations,
Live upon our daily rations,
And always know our proper stations,
set to music on the new system, for them to sing the while; this very FernâI see him nowâtouched that hat of his, and said, âI humbly ask your pardon, my lady, but anât I something different from a great girl?â I expected it, of course; who can expect anything but insolence and ingratitude from that class of people! That is not to the purpose, however. Sir Joseph! Make an example of him!â
âHem!â coughed Sir Joseph. âMr. Fish, if youâll have the goodness to attendââ
Mr. Fish immediately seized his pen, and wrote from Sir Josephâs dictation.
âPrivate. My dear Sir. I am very much indebted to you for your courtesy in the matter of the man William Fern, of whom, I regret to add, I can say nothing favourable. I have uniformly considered myself in the light of his Friend and Father, but have been repaid (a common case, I grieve to say) with ingratitude, and constant opposition to my plans. He is a turbulent and rebellious spirit. His character will not bear investigation. Nothing will persuade him to be happy when he might. Under these circumstances, it appears to me, I own, that when he comes before you again (as you informed me he promised to do to-morrow, pending your inquiries, and I think he may be so far relied upon), his committal for some short term as a Vagabond, would be a service to society, and would be a salutary example in a country whereâfor the sake of those who are, through good and evil report, the Friends and Fathers of the Poor, as well as with a view to that, generally speaking, misguided class themselvesâexamples are greatly needed. And I am,â and so forth.
âIt appears,â remarked Sir Joseph when he had signed this letter, and Mr. Fish was sealing it, âas if this were Ordained: really. At the close of the year, I wind up my account and strike my balance, even with William Fern!â
Trotty, who had long ago relapsed, and was very low-spirited, stepped forward with a rueful face to take the letter.
âWith my compliments and thanks,â said Sir Joseph. âStop!â
âStop!â echoed Mr. Fish.
âYou have heard, perhaps,â said Sir Joseph, oracularly, âcertain remarks into which I have been led respecting the solemn period of time at which we have arrived, and the duty imposed upon us of settling our affairs, and being prepared. You have observed that I donât shelter myself behind my superior standing in society, but that Mr. Fishâthat gentlemanâhas a cheque-book at his elbow, and is in fact here, to enable me to turn over a perfectly new leaf, and enter on the epoch before us with a clean account. Now, my friend, can you lay your hand upon your heart, and say, that you also have made preparations for a New Year?â
âI am afraid, sir,â stammered Trotty, looking meekly at him, âthat I am aâaâlittle behind-hand with the world.â
âBehind-hand with the world!â repeated Sir Joseph Bowley, in a tone of terrible distinctness.
âI am afraid, sir,â faltered Trotty, âthat thereâs a matter of ten or twelve shillings owing to Mrs. Chickenstalker.â
âTo Mrs. Chickenstalker!â repeated Sir Joseph, in the same tone as before.
âA shop, sir,â exclaimed Toby, âin the general line. Also aâa little money on account of rent. A very little, sir. It oughtnât to be owing, I know, but we have been hard put to it, indeed!â
Sir Joseph looked at his lady, and at Mr. Fish, and at Trotty, one after another, twice all round. He then made a despondent gesture with both hands at once, as if he gave the thing up altogether.
âHow a man, even among this improvident and impracticable race; an old man; a man grown grey; can look a New Year in the face, with his affairs in this condition; how he can lie down on his bed at night, and get up again in the morning, andâThere!â he said, turning his back on Trotty. âTake the letter. Take the letter!â
âI heartily wish it was otherwise, sir,â said Trotty, anxious to excuse himself. âWe have been tried very hard.â
Sir Joseph still repeating âTake the letter, take the letter!â and Mr. Fish not only saying the same thing, but giving additional force to the request by motioning the bearer to the door, he had nothing for it but to make his bow and leave the house. And in the street, poor Trotty pulled his worn old hat down on his head, to hide the grief he felt at getting no hold on the New Year, anywhere.
He didnât even lift his hat to look up at the Bell tower when he came to the old church on his return. He halted there a moment, from habit: and knew that it was growing dark, and that the steeple rose above him, indistinct and faint, in the murky air. He knew, too, that the Chimes would ring immediately; and that they sounded to his fancy, at such a time, like voices in the clouds. But he only made the more haste to deliver the Aldermanâs letter, and get out of the way before they began; for he dreaded to hear them tagging âFriends and Fathers, Friends and Fathers,â to the burden they had rung out last.
Toby discharged himself of his commission, therefore, with all possible speed, and set off trotting homeward. But what with his pace, which was at best an awkward one in the street; and what with his hat, which didnât improve it; he trotted against somebody in less than no time, and was sent staggering out into the road.
âI beg your pardon, Iâm sure!â said Trotty, pulling up his hat in great confusion, and between the hat and the torn lining, fixing his head into a kind of bee-hive. âI hope I havenât hurt you.â
As to hurting anybody, Toby was not such an absolute Samson, but that he was much more likely to be hurt himself: and indeed, he had flown out into the road, like a shuttlecock. He had such an opinion of his own strength, however, that he was in real concern for the other party: and said again,
âI hope I havenât hurt you?â
The man against whom he had run; a sun-browned, sinewy, country-looking man, with grizzled hair, and a rough chin; stared at him for a moment, as if he suspected him to be in jest. But, satisfied of his good faith, he answered:
âNo, friend. You have not hurt me.â
âNor the child, I hope?â said Trotty.
âNor the child,â returned the man. âI thank you kindly.â
As he said so, he glanced at a little girl he carried in his arms, asleep: and shading her face with the long end of the poor handkerchief he wore about his throat, went slowly on.
The tone in which he said âI thank you kindly,â penetrated Trottyâs heart. He was so jaded and foot-sore, and so soiled with travel, and looked about him so forlorn and strange, that it was a comfort to him to be able to thank any one: no matter for how little. Toby stood gazing after him as he plodded wearily away, with the childâs arm clinging round his neck.
At the figure in the worn shoesânow the very shade and ghost of shoesârough leather leggings, common frock, and broad slouched hat, Trotty stood gazing, blind to the whole street. And at the childâs arm, clinging round its neck.
Before he merged into the darkness the traveller stopped; and looking round, and seeing Trotty standing there yet, seemed undecided whether to return or go on. After doing first the one and then the other, he came back, and Trotty went half-way to meet him.
âYou can tell me, perhaps,â said the man with a faint smile, âand if you can I am sure you will, and Iâd rather ask you than anotherâwhere Alderman Cute lives.â
âClose at hand,â replied Toby. âIâll show you his house with pleasure.â
âI was to have gone to him elsewhere to-morrow,â said the man, accompanying Toby, âbut Iâm uneasy under suspicion, and want to clear myself, and to be free to go and seek my breadâI donât know where. So, maybe heâll forgive my going to his house to-night.â
âItâs impossible,â cried Toby with a start, âthat your nameâs Fern!â
âEh!â cried the other, turning on him in astonishment.
âFern! Will Fern!â said Trotty.
âThatâs my name,â replied the other.
âWhy then,â said Trotty, seizing him by the arm, and looking cautiously round, âfor Heavenâs sake donât go to him! Donât go to him! Heâll put you down as sure as ever you were born. Here! come up this alley, and Iâll tell you what I mean. Donât go to him.â
His new acquaintance looked as if he thought him mad; but he bore him company nevertheless. When they were shrouded from observation, Trotty told him what he knew, and what character he had received, and all about it.
The subject of his history listened to it with a calmness that surprised him. He did not contradict or interrupt it, once. He nodded his head now and thenâmore in corroboration of an old and worn-out story, it appeared, than in refutation of it; and once or twice threw back his hat, and passed his freckled hand over a brow, where every furrow he had ploughed seemed to have set its image in little. But he did no more.
âItâs true enough in the main,â he said, âmaster, I could sift grain from husk here and there, but let it be as âtis. What odds? I have gone against his plans; to my misfortunâ. I canât help it; I should do the like to-morrow. As to character, them gentlefolks will search and search, and pry and pry, and have it as free from spot or speck in us, afore theyâll help us to a dry good word!âWell! I hope they donât lose good opinion as easy as we do, or their lives is strict indeed, and hardly worth the keeping. For myself, master, I never took with that handââholding it before himââwhat wasnât my own; and never held it back from work, however hard, or poorly paid. Whoever can deny it, let him chop it off! But when work wonât maintain me like a human creetur; when my living is so bad, that I am Hungry, out of doors and in; when I see a whole working life begin that way, go on that way, and end that way, without a chance or change; then I say to the gentlefolks âKeep away from me! Let my cottage be. My doors is dark enough without your darkening of âem more. Donât look for me to come up into the Park to help the show when thereâs a Birthday, or a fine Speechmaking, or what not. Act your Plays and Games without me, and be welcome to âem, and enjoy âem. Weâve nowt to do with one another. Iâm best let alone!ââ
Seeing that the child in his arms had opened her eyes, and was looking about her in wonder, he checked himself to say a word or two of foolish prattle in her ear, and stand her on the ground beside him. Then slowly winding one of her long tresses round and round his rough forefinger like a ring, while she hung about his dusty leg, he said to Trotty:
âIâm not a cross-grained man by natuâ, I believe; and easy satisfied, Iâm sure. I bear no ill-will against none of âem. I only want to live like one of the Almightyâs creeturs. I canâtâI donâtâand so thereâs a pit dug between me, and them that can and do. Thereâs others like me. You might tell âem off by hundreds and by thousands, sooner than by ones.â
Trotty knew he spoke the Truth in this, and shook his head to signify as much.
âIâve got a bad name this way,â said Fern; âand Iâm not likely, Iâm afeared, to get a better. âTanât lawful to be out of sorts, and I am out of sorts, though God knows Iâd sooner bear a cheerful spirit if I could. Well! I donât know as this Alderman could hurt me much by sending me to jail; but without a friend to speak a word for me, he might do it; and you seeâ!â pointing downward with his finger, at the child.
âShe has a beautiful face,â said Trotty.
âWhy yes!â replied the other in a low voice, as he gently turned it up with both his hands towards his own, and looked upon it steadfastly. âIâve thought so, many times. Iâve thought so, when my hearth was very cold, and cupboard very bare. I thought so tâother night, when we were taken like two thieves. But theyâthey shouldnât try the little face too often, should they, Lilian? Thatâs hardly fair upon a man!â
He sunk his voice so low, and gazed upon her with an air so stern and strange, that Toby, to divert the current of his thoughts, inquired if his wife were living.
âI never had one,â he returned, shaking his head. âSheâs my brotherâs child: a orphan. Nine year old, though youâd hardly think it; but sheâs tired and worn out now. Theyâd have taken care on her, the Unionâeight-and-twenty mile away from where we liveâbetween four walls (as they took care of my old father when he couldnât work no more, though he didnât trouble âem long); but I took her instead, and sheâs lived with me ever since. Her mother had a friend once, in London here. We are trying to find her, and to find work too; but itâs a large place. Never mind. More room for us to walk about in, Lilly!â
Meeting the childâs eyes with a smile which melted Toby more than tears, he shook him by the hand.
âI donât so much as know your name,â he said, âbut Iâve opened my heart free to you, for Iâm thankful to you; with good reason. Iâll take your advice, and keep clear of thisââ
âJustice,â suggested Toby.
âAh!â he said. âIf thatâs the name they give him. This Justice. And to-morrow will try whether thereâs better fortunâ to be met with, somewheres near London. Good night. A Happy New Year!â
âStay!â cried Trotty, catching at his hand, as he relaxed his grip. âStay! The New Year never can be happy to me, if we part like this. The New Year never can be happy to me, if I see the child and you go wandering away, you donât know where, without a shelter for your heads. Come home with me! Iâm a poor man, living in a poor place; but I can give you lodging for one night and never miss it. Come home with me! Here! Iâll take her!â cried Trotty, lifting up the child. âA pretty one! Iâd carry twenty times her weight, and never know Iâd got it. Tell me if I go too quick for you. Iâm very fast. I always was!â Trotty said this, taking about six of his trotting paces to one stride of his fatigued companion; and with his thin legs quivering again, beneath the load he bore.
âWhy, sheâs as light,â said Trotty, trotting in his speech as well as in his gait; for he couldnât bear to be thanked, and dreaded a momentâs pause; âas light as a feather. Lighter than a Peacockâs featherâa great deal lighter. Here we are and here we go! Round this first turning to the right, Uncle Will, and past the pump, and sharp off up the passage to the left, right opposite the public-house. Here we are and here we go! Cross over, Uncle Will, and mind the kidney pieman at the corner! Here we are and here we go! Down the Mews here, Uncle Will, and stop at the black door, with âT. Veck, Ticket Porter,â wrote upon a board; and here we are and here we go, and here we are indeed, my precious. Meg, surprising you!â
With which words Trotty, in a breathless state, set the child down before his daughter in the middle of the floor. The little visitor looked once at Meg; and doubting nothing in that face, but trusting everything she saw there; ran into her arms.
âHere we are and here we go!â cried Trotty, running round the room, and choking audibly. âHere, Uncle Will, hereâs a fire you know! Why donât you come to the fire? Oh here we are and here we go! Meg, my precious darling, whereâs the kettle? Here it is and here it goes, and itâll bile in no time!â
Trotty really had picked up the kettle somewhere or other in the course of his wild career and now put it on the fire: while Meg, seating the child in a warm corner, knelt down on the ground before her, and pulled off her shoes, and dried her wet feet on a cloth. Ay, and she laughed at Trotty tooâso pleasantly, so cheerfully, that Trotty could have blessed her where she kneeled; for he had seen that, when they entered, she was sitting by the fire in tears.
âWhy, father!â said Meg. âYouâre crazy to-night, I think. I donât know what the Bells would say to that. Poor little feet. How cold they are!â
âOh, theyâre warmer now!â exclaimed the child. âTheyâre quite warm now!â
âNo, no, no,â said Meg. âWe havenât rubbed âem half enough. Weâre so busy. So busy! And when theyâre done, weâll brush out the damp hair; and when thatâs done, weâll bring some colour to the poor pale face with fresh water; and when thatâs done, weâll be so gay, and brisk, and happyâ!â
The child, in a burst of sobbing, clasped her round the neck; caressed her fair cheek with its hand; and said, âOh Meg! oh dear Meg!â
Tobyâs blessing could have done no more. Who could do more!
âWhy, father!â cried Meg, after a pause.
âHere I am and here I go, my dear!â said Trotty.
âGood Gracious me!â cried Meg. âHeâs crazy! Heâs put the dear childâs bonnet on the kettle, and hung the lid behind the door!â
âI didnât go for to do it, my love,â said Trotty, hastily repairing this mistake. âMeg, my dear?â
Meg looked towards him and saw that he had elaborately stationed himself behind the chair of their male visitor, where with many mysterious gestures he was holding up the sixpence he had earned.
âI see, my dear,â said Trotty, âas I was coming in, half an ounce of tea lying somewhere on the stairs; and Iâm pretty sure there was a bit of bacon too. As I donât remember where it was exactly, Iâll go myself and try to find âem.â
With this inscrutable artifice, Toby withdrew to purchase the viands he had spoken of, for ready money, at Mrs. Chickenstalkerâs; and presently came back, pretending he had not been able to find them, at first, in the dark.
âBut here they are at last,â said Trotty, setting out the tea-things, âall correct! I was pretty sure it was tea, and a rasher. So it is. Meg, my pet, if youâll just make the tea, while your unworthy father toasts the bacon, we shall be ready, immediate. Itâs a curious circumstance,â said Trotty, proceeding in his cookery, with the assistance of the toasting-fork, âcurious, but well known to my friends, that I never care, myself, for rashers, nor for tea. I like to see other people enjoy âem,â said Trotty, speaking very loud, to impress the fact upon his guest, âbut to me, as food, theyâre disagreeable.â
Yet Trotty sniffed the savour of the hissing baconâah!âas if he liked it; and when he poured the boiling water in the tea-pot, looked lovingly down into the depths of that snug cauldron, and suffered the fragrant steam to curl about his nose, and wreathe his head and face in a thick cloud. However, for all this, he neither ate nor drank, except at the very beginning, a mere morsel for formâs sake, which he appeared to eat with infinite relish, but declared was perfectly uninteresting to him.
No. Trottyâs occupation was, to see Will Fern and Lilian eat and drink; and so was Megâs. And never did spectators at a city dinner or court banquet find such high delight in seeing others feast: although it were a monarch or a pope: as those two did, in looking on that night. Meg smiled at Trotty, Trotty laughed at Meg. Meg shook her head, and made belief to clap her hands, applauding Trotty; Trotty conveyed, in dumb-show, unintelligible narratives of how and when and where he had found their visitors, to Meg; and they were happy. Very happy.
âAlthough,â thought Trotty, sorrowfully, as he watched Megâs face; âthat match is broken off, I see!â
âNow, Iâll tell you what,â said Trotty after tea. âThe little one, she sleeps with Meg, I know.â
âWith good Meg!â cried the child, caressing her. âWith Meg.â
âThatâs right,â said Trotty. âAnd I shouldnât wonder if she kiss Megâs father, wonât she? Iâm Megâs father.â
Mightily delighted Trotty was, when the child went timidly towards him, and having kissed him, fell back upon Meg again.
âSheâs as sensible as Solomon,â said Trotty. âHere we come and here weâno, we donâtâI donât mean thatâIâwhat was I saying, Meg, my precious?â
Meg looked towards their guest, who leaned upon her chair, and with his face turned from her, fondled the childâs head, half hidden in her lap.
âTo be sure,â said Toby. âTo be sure! I donât know what Iâm rambling on about, to-night. My wits are wool-gathering, I think. Will Fern, you come along with me. Youâre tired to death, and broken down for want of rest. You come along with me.â The man still played with the childâs curls, still leaned upon Megâs chair, still turned away his face. He didnât speak, but in his rough coarse fingers, clenching and expanding in the fair hair of the child, there was an eloquence that said enough.
âYes, yes,â said Trotty, answering unconsciously what he saw expressed in his daughterâs face. âTake her with you, Meg. Get her to bed. There! Now, Will, Iâll show you where you lie. Itâs not much of a place: only a loft; but, having a loft, I always say, is one of the great conveniences of living in a mews; and till this coach-house and stable gets a better let, we live here cheap. Thereâs plenty of sweet hay up there, belonging to a neighbour; and itâs as clean as hands, and Meg, can make it. Cheer up! Donât give way. A new heart for a New Year, always!â
The hand released from the childâs hair, had fallen, trembling, into Trottyâs hand. So Trotty, talking without intermission, led him out as tenderly and easily as if he had been a child himself. Returning before Meg, he listened for an instant at the door of her little chamber; an adjoining room. The child was murmuring a simple Prayer before lying down to sleep; and when she had remembered Megâs name, âDearly, Dearlyââso her words ranâTrotty heard her stop and ask for his.
It was some short time before the foolish little old fellow could compose himself to mend the fire, and draw his chair to the warm hearth. But, when he had done so, and had trimmed the light, he took his newspaper from his pocket, and began to read. Carelessly at first, and skimming up and down the columns; but with an earnest and a sad attention, very soon.
For this same dreaded paper re-directed Trottyâs thoughts into the channel they had taken all that day, and which the dayâs events had so marked out and shaped. His interest in the two wanderers had set him on another course of thinking, and a happier one, for the time; but being alone again, and reading of the crimes and violences of the people, he relapsed into his former train.
In this mood, he came to an account (and it was not the first he had ever read) of a woman who had laid her desperate hands not only on her own life but on that of her young child. A crime so terrible, and so revolting to his soul, dilated with the love of Meg, that he let the journal drop, and fell back in his chair, appalled!
âUnnatural and cruel!â Toby cried. âUnnatural and cruel! None but people who were bad at heart, born bad, who had no business on the earth, could do such deeds. Itâs too true, all Iâve heard to-day; too just, too full of proof. Weâre Bad!â
The Chimes took up the words so suddenlyâburst out so loud, and clear, and sonorousâthat the Bells seemed to strike him in his chair.
And what was that, they said?
âToby Veck, Toby Veck, waiting for you Toby! Toby Veck, Toby Veck, waiting for you Toby! Come and see us, come and see us, Drag him to us, drag him to us, Haunt and hunt him, haunt and hunt him, Break his slumbers, break his slumbers! Toby Veck Toby Veck, door open wide Toby, Toby Veck Toby Veck, door open wide Tobyââ then fiercely back to their impetuous strain again, and ringing in the very bricks and plaster on the walls.
Toby listened. Fancy, fancy! His remorse for having run away from them that afternoon! No, no. Nothing of the kind. Again, again, and yet a dozen times again. âHaunt and hunt him, haunt and hunt him, Drag him to us, drag him to us!â Deafening the whole town!
âMeg,â said Trotty softly: tapping at her door. âDo you hear anything?â
âI hear the Bells, father. Surely theyâre very loud to-night.â
âIs she asleep?â said Toby, making an excuse for peeping in.
âSo peacefully and happily! I canât leave her yet though, father. Look how she holds my hand!â
âMeg,â whispered Trotty. âListen to the Bells!â
She listened, with her face towards him all the time. But it underwent no change. She didnât understand them.
Trotty withdrew, resumed his seat by the fire, and once more listened by himself. He remained here a little time.
It was impossible to bear it; their energy was dreadful.
âIf the tower-door is really open,â said Toby, hastily laying aside his apron, but never thinking of his hat, âwhatâs to hinder me from going up into the steeple and satisfying myself? If itâs shut, I donât want any other satisfaction. Thatâs enough.â
He was pretty certain as he slipped out quietly into the street that he should find it shut and locked, for he knew the door well, and had so rarely seen it open, that he couldnât reckon above three times in all. It was a low arched portal, outside the church, in a dark nook behind a column; and had such great iron hinges, and such a monstrous lock, that there was more hinge and lock than door.
But what was his astonishment when, coming bare-headed to the church; and putting his hand into this dark nook, with a certain misgiving that it might be unexpectedly seized, and a shivering propensity to draw it back again; he found that the door, which opened outwards, actually stood ajar!
He thought, on the first surprise, of going back; or of getting a light, or a companion, but his courage aided him immediately, and he determined to ascend alone.
âWhat have I to fear?â said Trotty. âItâs a church! Besides, the ringers may be there, and have forgotten to shut the door.â So he went in, feeling his way as he went, like a blind man; for it was very dark. And very quiet, for the Chimes were silent.
The dust from the street had blown into the recess; and lying there, heaped up, made it so soft and velvet-like to the foot, that there was something startling, even in that. The narrow stair was so close to the door, too, that he stumbled at the very first; and shutting the door upon himself, by striking it with his foot, and causing it to rebound back heavily, he couldnât open it again.
This was another reason, however, for going on. Trotty groped his way, and went on. Up, up, up, and round, and round; and up, up, up; higher, higher, higher up!
It was a disagreeable staircase for that groping work; so low and narrow, that his groping hand was always touching something; and it often felt so like a man or ghostly figure standing up erect and making room for him to pass without discovery, that he would rub the smooth wall upward searching for its face, and downward searching for its feet, while a chill tingling crept all over him. Twice or thrice, a door or niche broke the monotonous surface; and then it seemed a gap as wide as the whole church; and he felt on the brink of an abyss, and going to tumble headlong down, until he found the wall again.
Still up, up, up; and round and round; and up, up, up; higher, higher, higher up!
At length, the dull and stifling atmosphere began to freshen: presently to feel quite windy: presently it blew so strong, that he could hardly keep his legs. But, he got to an arched window in the tower, breast high, and holding tight, looked down upon the house-tops, on the smoking chimneys, on the blur and blotch of lights (towards the place where Meg was wondering where he was and calling to him perhaps), all kneaded up together in a leaven of mist and darkness.
This was the belfry, where the ringers came. He had caught hold of one of the frayed ropes which hung down through apertures in the oaken roof. At first he started, thinking it was hair; then trembled at the very thought of waking the deep Bell. The Bells themselves were higher. Higher, Trotty, in his fascination, or in working out the spell upon him, groped his way. By ladders now, and toilsomely, for it was steep, and not too certain holding for the feet.
Up, up, up; and climb and clamber; up, up, up; higher, higher, higher up!
Until, ascending through the floor, and pausing with his head just raised above its beams, he came among the Bells. It was barely possible to make out their great shapes in the gloom; but there they were. Shadowy, and dark, and dumb.
A heavy sense of dread and loneliness fell instantly upon him, as he climbed into this airy nest of stone and metal. His head went round and round. He listened, and then raised a wild âHolloa!â Holloa! was mournfully protracted by the echoes.
Giddy, confused, and out of breath, and frightened, Toby looked about him vacantly, and sunk down in a swoon.