[Intro: Shaun Sloan & Sasha Sloan]
I used to shut my door while my mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen
(TRADEMARK)
I thought I lost it (Every little fight)
I thought I lost it ('Cause neither one was right)
Lost it
(I swore I'd never be like them)
(But I was just a kid back then)
(The older I get)

[Verse 1: Shaun Sloan]
Remember them days, we a play at mommy house
Thinking about it give me chills, can't cry right now
No feeling inside, it's like they took my soul out
Hospital bed, tears dropping on your hands now
All we got is memories, they can't replace that
Call your phone, praise the Lord when you answer that
Take me to Long Beach, I know that's where you probably at
This store got everything you need, that's why you shop there
As I look at my aunties it still feel like you right here
Know my mama hurt, need to see my mama more
What is life without the ones that you love?
Your son died, it's like he told you to come, we got two angels in one
Sometimes I post in the sun, can you see where I am?
And the family need comfort, seem like he don't understand
This shit ain't right, they only show love when you die
We share the same blood we, just alive
I stand in the sun
I, I try to see you, staring in the sun
Please let me come, 'cause swear to God, I papered down
[Chorus: Sasha Sloan]
I used to shut my door while my mother screamed in the kitchen
I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen
To every little fight 'cause neither one was right
I swore I'd never be like them
But I was just a kid back then
The older I get

[Verse 2: G Herbo]
Uh, all my life I felt pain
I dealt with death, I lost my mind, I felt sane
Like the weather got a change
I seen the sun, I felt rain, I gained fame
I locked in then wealth came
Now I'm on my twelfth chain
I left the hood, I'm all good
But my mental health ain't
I keep my family safe, can't keep myself safe
I can't grieve, I need a lesson
I got cheese beneath the blessin'
No more squeezin' Smith & Wessons
I can't breathe 'cause I been stressin'
I'm not leavin' I got hope
Need a drink 'cause I can't dope
'Caused my granny first stroke (I did)
Am I the reason bro got smoked? (Damn)
Really had to ask myself, I be wantin' blast myself
I be 'bout to latch myself
I'm just tryna grasp myself, for real
Reason I be off pills, I lost Cap, I caught chills
I lost Max, I couldn't kill (I couldn't), give a fuck about them bills
Took that shit, I bought wheels (Fucking)
I couldn't tell them how I feel
I can't tell them how I felt, take that pain by myself
Got my flame by myself, made my name by myself
Now I hang by myself, can't complain but I'm really hurtin'
On my grind, I'm still workin'
It's my time I know my purpose
So this shit was all worth it, know that
[Outro: Sasha Sloan ]
The older I get, the more that I see
My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me
And loving is hard, it don't always work
You just try your best not to get hurt
I used to be mad, but now I know
Sometimes it's better to let someone go
It just hadn't hit me yet
The older I get
I used to wonder