[Verse]
I grew up by myself, I ain't have no real friends
The ones I talked to in school all switched up on me in the end
Fit in or get killed 'cause these people full of hate
They left me out 'cause I was different and I couldn't act the same
When I was down on the ground my friends didn't help me up
Because they know the bullies hate me and they scared of gеtting judged
If you save yourself, you gotta put your brothеr in the mud
And nobody taught me life so I couldn't stand up
Words hurt, fists hurt, told them I would bring a knife to school
They laughed in my face and the teachers watched it happen too
They ain't do nothing, I was sobbing in that fucking room
Eleven years old, I ain't know what I was finna do
Everything was lost and nobody want to help
Stopped going to that school and stayed at home all by myself
I did nothing all day, I was just rotting away
Spent a few years like that and it turned me insane
And then high school came around, I guess it was kinda chill
But I still needed to fill the emptiness I felt within
So I started doing drugs, only thing I found fun
And I had some good friends, but they turned into drug bonds
Being high everyday, ain't getting shit done
And I'm lying to my family, they ain't ever knew nun'
If there's drugs in my presence, you know that I'll do some
I was losing all my functions, yeah, I felt so fucking dumb
Then got heart broke by a bitch, can't believe she chose him
Had me so delusional, I ain't wan' believe a thing
Crashing out everyday, then ask why don't she want me?
New hole in my chest that I needed to fill in, empty
Fucking bitches that I didn't really love
Doing even more drugs but it still wasn't enough
I ain't had no one to talk to, I just had to act tough
But if only they knew that my whole life was just a bluff
Drinking, smoking, drinking, smoking, smoke a pack in one day
I always got myself even though I never felt okay
Waste away every single day, it was just the same
But I always had myself and that's what fucking got me saved