I gave a girl everything I had to give
Money I didn’t have
Time i couldn’t waste
When she lost her peace, found it, and dragged it back to her
I showed her another side of the world without ever leaving the city
She told me that I was so kind
And so sensitive
That we would fall in love

But after a few months, we had a falling out
I decided it was best that we didn’t talk anymore
In response to this
She told me that I was possessive
That I fall in love too easily;
And I’m too sensitive

And now I know what it means when they say that people will hate the very qualities they loved about you
And it will leave you unsure of yourself
You will wonder what changed, was it them
Or was it me?
You will question the value of I love you’s
After seeing how conditional love can be
Your first instinct will be to blame yourself
Because your love for this person will not want to allow you to blame them

It’s rare that people will admit to hurting you
Instead, They will frame you as being wrong
Convincing themselves that you are toxic in order to alleviate their own guilt
And if you have been kind them
Having little to pull from
They will have no option but to turn your better qualities against you
Your passion will be newly regarded as overwhelming
Your concern will be possessiveness
Your kindness will be naivety
And your love will be “too much”
But in regard to emotion
You cannot love too much
You can only love the wrong person
The more in tune you are with your emotions is the more human you will be
We weren’t given feelings to hide them away and numb ourselves. We were made to feel
It’s how we interact with everything around us
It’s how we remind ourselves we’re alive

So I resent the idea of being too sensitive
Because in a world continually growing colder
People will try to rob you of your warmth
But we need vulnerability
We need people who embrace their own feelings and recognize the weight of them
So we can begin to see validity in the feelings of others
I resent the idea that I need to change
To harden myself in order to survive in this world
Maybe the world is what needs changing

We try to convince ourselves that our minds set precedence over the things we feel
As if we can turn off our emotions function off logic alone
We always lose
Because we are not machines
We are human beings
And what sets us apart from an assortment of codes and numbers
Is our ability to find balance between logic and intuition
So I will not change
I will be too sensitive
And because you can’t find it within yourself to appreciate me
Doesn’t mean I’ve lost my worth