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Unfortunately i think i've experienced loss a little too many times and every time it just really made me go back into very dark places mentally, I guess, uh, ones that i obviously don’t want to be in but it's just also made me realize how beautiful and precious life is and no matter how long I spend crying and, I guess, think and wish in a very twisted way that I was the one to be gone instead of the people that I love, that I loved, um, I guеss, I just tried every timе to just realize that if they're gone and I’m still here, then I owe them something to just really be appreciative of life
Over the course of my many years, I've lost a lot. And when I think back on that, it's not so much that those things are gone for me, it's how lucky I was to have them in the first place
When asked to think about loss I think about that quote that says I'm a mosaic of everyone I've ever loved even for a heartbeat because all the people I have loved or love now shaped me into who I am today by sharing all the facets of themselves, their vulnerabilities, their interests, introducing me to people they love. I truly believe everyone who comes into your life is there for a reason