[Verse 1]
I’d throw it all away and leave it all behind
I won’t pick myself up off the streets that shaped me
Where I grew up way too fast at breakneck pace
And I lost my shot at this
Took aim, I fired and missed
That sense of failure I felt
Cause I always do this to myself

[Chorus]
I can’t take back all what I said and I did
I can’t stop holding out for a dance with death
It’s self destructive, hung up on yesterday
I’m losing everything, I’m losing everything

[Verse 2]
So why am I fucking trying?
There’s not an ounce of good left in me
I let down every friend I had likе family
Just like I always do
I’ll think back to what I was told
“What you seek can’t be held in your hands, bought or sold”
And If I go, what would bе those shallow words you’ll say to me?
Goodbye, or rest in peace?
Pretend to care, pretend to weep
Pretend you knew a thing about me
And my mind's eyes closed shut with doubt, cause I always do this to myself
[Chorus]
I can’t take back all what I said and I did
Can’t stop holding out for a dance with death
It’s self destructive, hung up on yesterday
I’m losing everything, I’m losing everything

[Verse 3]
And I’ll wonder what it’s like to be wanted
Just the false hope to hold me in place
And every night where I end up thinking
It’s all too much, is this my life to take?
And now it’s all so clear
I want to be embraced by the void that I fear
Staring in, there’s a sound that I’ll take to my grave
A permanent solution that’s been calling my name

[Chorus]
I can’t take back all what I said and I did
Can’t stop holding out for a dance with death
It’s self destructive, i’m hung up on yesterday
I’m losing everything, I’ve lost everything