[Verse 1]
Had a day with destiny
Damn right, y'all hit play
But that bitch curved me for like 4 mix tapes
Get your shit straight, fix your collar
Get your dollars up
Speak up boy, better sit straight
You ain't Drizzy Drake, Lil Wayne, Kanye, Kendrick, Marshall
Fuck you ain't big Jay, nah
Yeah, they don't love me back home
Nah, they don't love me back home
But they need me back home
Fucked up about this shit is
Is they don't even know, nah
They can do it on their own
Now, I'm singing this shit
Guess it all makes sense as a kid
I listened to the bone
At my parents crib, watching BET, MTV
You know all the ?
Now I'm sitting at the table with a pretty young thing
And she tell me about her day
But the truth is, I can give a negative 2 fucks 'bout what she gotta say
Only found god in these rhymes
Why'd you think god damn it, every night I go home and pray
Let this all go straight
And my momma said say this - it's all love
[Hook]
This is not a song, is not a song for you
It's some shit that's running through my head now
This is not a song, is not a song for you
This is just some shit that's running through my head
[Bridge]
When I'm faded
I'm just chilling in this hotel room
And I don't know what I'm searching for, yeah, any more, nah
(x2)
[Verse 2]
This how I really feel
This how I really feel
Funny how my heart on my sleeve
Put the beat here kill this hell
17 running around
Heartbeat screaming that I'm really ill
8 years later
God damn it, I'm the only one really here, yeah
I just got my word and my bars
She just got curves in them draws
She working it all
Me, I gave birth to 'em all
That's why we go splurge in the mall
For the years you watched me fall
For the years you watched me crawl
Nah, I ain't lost
I don't listen to you people
I listen to my heart
And it can't be bought till the curtains is called, you know
And these lungs are filled with tar
Lately I've been so distraught
With all these thoughts in my head
But fuck it, I'ma drink this gin instead, so
[Hook]
This is not a song, is not a song for you
It's some shit that's running through my head now
This is not a song, is not a song for you
This is just some shit that's running through my head
[Bridge]
When I'm faded
I'm just chilling in this hotel room
And I don't know what I'm searching for, yeah, any more, nah
(x2)
[Instrumental]
[Bridge]
When I'm faded
I'm just chilling in this hotel room
And I don't know what I'm searching for, yeah, any more, nah
(x2)
