[Verse 1]
I cover my flaws but that don't mean I'm fake
I'm trapped in my mind and I cannot escape
Downing these bottles, I hope I don't wake
Yeah, Mom why'd you go, yeah, why did you break?
I'm numbing the pain with these pills that I take
Life ain't a fairy tale, love ain't a game
You win or you lose but you still hurt the same
I lost my emotions, I don't feel the pain
These drugs in my body, I don't feel the fame
Can't do this no more, no, I cannot be saved
Pass me the shovel, I'm digging my grave
Life is a dream, yeah, it's all just a test
You were the one, yeah, I gave you the best
Yeah, things were so good, let's go back to the past
Yeah, I put you first, baby, you put me last
I'm running for life and I'm not going back

[Verse 2]
Don't feel the love, bitch, I don't feel affection
These thoughts in my head, baby, they're never ending
I'm finally happy, yeah, don't try to end it
So tell me the truth, baby, don't try to bend it
You beg for my love but I'm not one to send it
Your love is a drug, baby, I am addicted
You kept me from living, I felt so restricted
Give me a week, I'll be up in the sky
But I'll realize my purpose, I don't wanna die
Every sentence you speak I perceive as a lie
But I cannot let go, yeah, I've tried and I've tried
You treated me bad but I can't say goodbye
'Cause baby, I love you, and I don't know why