[Intro]
Mmm-mmm, mmm-mmm-mmm

[Verse 1]
Uhhh... I don't know where to start
Same kid with the same hole inside of his heart
Same big forehead, same hat that I wear insecurely to cover it
I'm not feelin' too hot
Life is an AC, a cool breeze in the wind
I'm a dick, yeah, I'm Tracy, I'm not there for my friends
But the Captain said, "It's okay"
The devil in my head that tells me that I am so great
"Overcharge these n***as for what they did to Lupe, you be straight
You could figure out that family shit later, fuck these bitches, get paper"
Don't tell me I ain't do favors, I used to intern at Fader's
Sat at that front desk for hours, Kanye and Nas, now we major
Biggie and Pac were the greatest, but I can't say they the best
That's just the way that I'm feelin', I'm gettin' shit off my chest
You tellin' me if I make it to longevity
You still gonna compare me twenty years after they death?
Uhhh... I don't know where to end
Sacrificing integrity, I've been trying to win
Triple H Pedigree, a degenerate that I am
I don't know what I believe in
I feel like I've run out of reasons to live, though, I'm not suicidal
In vain, but the feelin' is vital
Wipe my ass with the pages of Bibles, hit it flaccid, I snuck in the recital
Rather a drunk be the one that you lied to
A conflicted future and past
I'm young, black in America, no escaping my heritage
Still I'm full of conviction, I'm writing my own narrative
With the voice of Morgan Freeman: what my parents did is not imperative
Lived the life of a surrogate
Vicarious, a passenger in my own body
But the Captain said he got me, "Just drink more liquor, you'll be more social
You'll get more women, more people'll know you"
I hate being mixey, rather chill up on my own
Other nights, I'm tryna find a bitch to bone
While my mother squatting in her own home, older brother losing it inside his dome
Guess they call it being grown when everything just falls apart
Fucking random women every night is overrated
Text 'em like home and away jerseys lately, I'm alternating
But love feels outdated
Been afraid of intimacy since twenty-three, I don't let women close
Don't like when they ask about my goals
I got dreams you wouldn't understand, I got things you couldn't comprehend
Beer cans rattle next to my speakers
Every day, I swear, I wanna quit drinking, I just hope I'm not an alcoholic
In my forties paying for a child I'm not supporting
Probably better off aborting
All this pressure feels enormous, I feel weak
I have a hard time seeing myself as a man in the later end of my twenties
Uhhh... I forgot where the middle is
Point me to where the fiddle is, a genius, the biggest idiot
I was mistaken being humble for not taking myself serious
It's like I only exist
To prove y'all wrong, and when that's done, what is my purpose?
A sea urchin just trying to find the point
The Intern was a boy, the Captain was his voice
And I'm just living through the noise
[Outro]
This is weird